When you find out you're normal, for a creative.
Updated: Jan 17
Lesson learnt for today - work with & along side the "fear".
You see, I feel fear daily, hourly even, every time I try to create something new. An idea comes to me and so does anxiety/fear at the exact same time, hitting me equally as hard as the idea.
One comes with goosebumps and a warm fuzzy feeling and one comes with a nice side of nausea.
I always thought I had to feel the fear and push through...but today I like the lesson of learning that I can acknowledge the fear, and take away its power by allowing space for it next to me while I work.
To find out this is normal for creatives makes me feel a deep sense of relief.
Hey, I'm somewhat normal! A close friend gave me the book "Big Magic" by Elizabeth Gilbert last week. OK, so I know I'm late to the table with this popular book so bare with me. She gave it to me after I said how I can't seem to move past the fear of creating my new and latest idea. It's been sitting in my brain now for weeks, maybe months.
There is nothing at all stopping me from doing what I need to do to make the idea come alive....that is except for fear. Will it work? Will it sell? Who am I to create a product for ASD kids? (Besides a kick ass mother of an ASD child!) I'm no expert (well actually I am on my son!), I have not studied, what price will I make it? (who cares, it will help children!) How will I get the artwork done?
You see where I am going with this? My fear likes to jump right on board of every idea I have every had and tell me why I can't do it. So to hear this is normal and that even Elizabeth Gilbert feels it, well you can imagine how that makes me feel.
I have created products from absolutely nothing except an idea before. All while raising babies and suffering from PND and Post natal anxiety. I'm talking to the point of being scared to leave the house. But I have felt the fear and done it anyway. Somehow, day by day I push through it.
Only someone who has ideas and has brought them to life would understand. Only someone who feels that anxiety of "what will the world think" and "how on earth can I afford or find time to do this" would understand.
Is it that my Mum gave me her spirit of NEVER giving up that helps me through? Is it that God is watching over me and guiding me knowing that I was born to do this? Or is it just that I have been enough places and had enough experiences to help me grow and move through my fear?
The answer is not important. The only thing that is important is what I do with these ideas that come to me and make me giddy with excitement.
I encourage you today to use the wise words of Elizabeth and when an idea comes to you in life - "Most of all, be ready. Keep your eyes open. Listen. Follow your curiosity. Ask questions. Sniff around. Remain open. Trust in the miraculous truth that new and marvellous ideas are looking for human collaborators every single day. Ideas of every kind are constantly galloping toward us, constantly passing through us. Constantly trying to get our attention. Let them know you're available. And for heaven's sake, try not to miss the next one".
You heard the woman - hear it, see it, do it! Move with that fear along side you and acknowledge it, then tell it to take a back seat and shut the hell up!
So please tell me, have you had this same experience? Let me know below.